I have not been on as much as I was about 3 years ago and I always check in here and there. I feel like I am in such a dark/impossible place with the whole situation that I feel I would never do this again if I knew what I know now… to think of what I would change, I can’t even, it overwhelms me. I know that is not the point but it is how I feel right now. Things have been really good for awhile and I have not posted in so long but there is always fall back and I am in that spot right now. Just needed to get it out. Thanks Ladies you are all sooo great.