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2 Youngsters I can't control.

3 yr old SS crying all the time!

A bio-mom worried about new stepmom in her daughter's life- can we help?

About ready to throw in the towel!

About to become a step parent and am terrified!

Bio mom badmouthing me to my stepson & he repeats to me & my kids.

Bio-mom back & I'm hurt by her impact-what can I do?

Bio-mom doesn't want me present at any of my skids school events.

Bio-mom is online stalking & has issues w/ pictures of skids.

Bio-mom physically assaulted me & telling skids it was the other way around?

Bio-mom used me, I drew a line, she’s angry--now what?

BM doesn't want her kids, then does-what's going on?

Clarifying Mission Statement for SMOMS-revised

Dealing w/ bio-mom who doesn't want to get along with me?

Dealing w/ Deceased Bio Mom's Extended Family

Dealing with SD at my young age

DH finds out he has a daughter-I feel terrible

DH sets no Boundaries for SD20-what to do?

DH w/3 bio-kids not trying to bond w/ my 2 bio kids.

Do I love my ss? I don't know.

Does the BB help or hurt with issues?

Don't know where I went wrong

Ever Feel Like Leaving?

FDH feels guilty about leaving BM & allows her to excessively call/text/email him.

Feeling like invisible parent to stepson- help!

Feeling like the enemy in my own house: Teen SD

Feeling resentment towards my SS & can't connect

From BB- A Ritual for you & your beloved

From BB: Self-awareness can hurt...why is that?

Help w/situation that dad, biomom & skid all agree on but I don’t feel is best

Holiday traditions? Some ideas from sister SMOMS

How can I find the right balance & Boundaries?

How can I handle my SD8 who loves negative attention?

How do I cope w/DH's need for perfect family when I'm more realistic about it?

How do I deal with a lying SD, her bio-mom & the ex-step mom?

How do I deal with all the hurt and anger?

How do I help her understand that chores and rules don't mean that I don’t love her?

How do I stop SD from lying to me, DH, BM, and BM's boyfriend?

How to accept bio-mom's "bad" choices?

How to deal w/ unkind skids, ex-wife, MIL costing me my relationship?

how to deal w/SD choosing bio-mom for school play?

How to handle bio-mom who keeps asking for more $$$?

How to handle it when skids away Christmas Day?

How to help ss, when BM encourages him to lie?

How to help when bio-mom returns

How to let go of the single life I thought I saw going to live versus being SMOM?

How to make transition easier for skids?

how to step back in after stepping out?

Husband still feels guilty, his kids in their 30’s

I am frustrated with my skids 99% of the!

I feel jealous of DH's ex & unheard by DH-Help!

I feel left out & sort of invisible w/ grown SD’s

I really love my FDH, but really wish his daughter didn't exist?

I want a better relationship w/ teen stepson

I want a Closer relationship w/ stepdaughter

I want my bed back

I would like to know how to change my attitude towards my new inherited family

I'm at the end of my tether... Stepchildren don't seem to like me.

If you're in the mood for SMOMS Pep Talk-read this!

Invested so much love, time, energy & $$...seems it's never enough

It's too much work- I need help from DH & Family!

Jealous of sister-in-law & Skids-what can I do?

Just jealous or maybe time to leave?

Local support stepmom groups???

My DH doesn't understand why my feelings are hurt

My husband stays at his mothers when he has his daughter for the night.

Need better coping skills to do so…

No matter what I do, bio-mom still hostile. I feel hopeless & scared

Not a step mom yet but need some guidance

Open for your Questions in March 2015

Right now, I HATE being a Stepmom!!!

Self-Pity-it's an emotional numbing,energy draining tactic

Someone to talk to when things come up or whenever?

SS5 keeps throwing his BM in my face! Help!

Struggling w/ a jealous stepdaughter

Stubborn DH and sexually active teenage SS

teenage step daughter & car...Ugh!

the problem is my partner...why is he fighting my efforts?

Transitions and Coparenting Struggles

Trouble coping w/BF's newborn & ex.

Venting Guidelines- A Requested approach

What are reasonable expectations?

What are these letters?

What boundaries do I need to set with husband and sd?

What can we do about the rage! I "Lost it" last night. Help!

What to do about disrespectful 20 yr/old SS

What to do when Bio mom starts turning step daughter against me?

what to do when step child stops saying I love you?

When bio-mom sends stuff from life w/your DH?

When BM causes drama, how to prevent that impacting my relationship w/ the skids?

When to call it quits? What to do?

When winning more important to bio-mom than getting along

Why do things Skid's say bother me so & what to do?-Updated!

Why does it bother me that my skids don't recognize how much their father does for th

Why does my ss's rudeness bother me so?

Why does my stepson Idolize his bio-mom????

Why don't I matter in the family?

Why so jealous? What about irrational fears?

About to become a step parent and am terrified!
In all honestly I feel awful even having to look for advice and not having the instant feeling of excitement and happiness that I’m going to become a step parent. The situation isn’t all that straight forward so Im hoping if I give you a little background that it will change things.

My fiance and I have been together for a year now and I can honestly say I never thought I would be this happy and to say that he is everything I wanted. It sounds like something from a book but he truly is. We have made all sorts of plans for our life together and are due to be married next year.

When I met him he told me he had a son from his previous marriage when he was very young which I had no issue with at all, I myself come from parents who divorced and both remarried and I gained 3 step sisters, 1 step brother and eventually 2 half sisters. He has had no contact with his son, as shortly after the divorce went through she moved away with his son, leaving no forwarding address etc. He was completely unable to find them until very recently he has managed to find her location and phone number.

He is now saying he’s going to take her to court and fight for access rights or full custody. I realise that him getting full custody is unlikely, his son has no memory of him and there’s no need to remove him from the situation. However they live in the USA and we are shortly moving to Dubai.

I’ve been through a similar situation myself when I was a child with my Dad when he remarried, all of a sudden wanting to be a family. It’s disruptive, stressful and can turn very bitter, often with the child being used a tool to hurt the other parent.

I myself have no children and have never been sure whether I wanted them purely on the basis of what I experienced when my parents divorced.

I love my fiance more than anything and I have expressed no concerns whatsoever to him about his gaining access to his son, if anything I’ve encouraged him. He is his father after all and I know how it feels as a child to think one of your parents doesn’t want you.

However, I cant help feeling like Im going to get completely lost in this whole situation and pushed to one side. My entire life I have put others first and always put my own dreams to the back of my mind as not being important. Now I finally meet someone who wants me to decide what 'I' want and it seems that no sooner have I accepted that it’s possible it’s going to be taken away from me.

I feel dreadful about not automatically being happy at having a step son but I know how hard I made it for my step mother. I can’t help but feel that karma is going to bite a chunk out of my butt for my behaviour to my step mother.

I know all of this is my own premonition of things to come but I’m very very anxious about it all and can’t voice any of these feelings to my fiance as all he needs from me right now is support and to help him fight for what he has wanted for so long.

Any advise you can offer, even if its just to tell me to slap myself and get on with it would be very very gratefully received.

Regards, Missy


Dear Missy,

I promise you that I’m not going to tell you to slap yourself...ever! The feelings that you are having make perfect to me. If you think you may be getting carried away, read my stepmom article about “The pros and cons of Catastrophizing” to see if that’s what you’re doing. My sense is that your feelings are asking you for help. Let’s honor their discomfort and see what they may be trying to tell you. OK?

As I started reading your letter I was thinking about all the times you’ve had to put yourself second to the needs of others. Then, you said it yourself! What you are experiencing is, in psychological terms, called an “unconscious compulsion to repeat” patterns and behaviors from our childhood. To learn more about this VERY important issue, so you can make things more conscious (you’ve got a good start already) and feel more empowered, please rush to read the book, “The Drama of the Gifted Child” by Dr. Alice Miller. It will explain so much and can help you see many things. It certainly was profound for me and so I recommend it to everyone willing to dig into their own Psyche’s.

When you were a child, you HAD to take a lot of changes and were forced to deal with the decisions of others. Can you tell yourself that you are NOT a child anymore and that as an adult woman, you CAN speak up for what you want and need from the “love of your life”? There’s no need for you to stay quiet as he goes through this process. (what part of you is telling you that you have to choose to stay quiet? I bet it is the little girl you used to be trying to keep you safe.)

You were forced to stay quiet in the past so it is a well-worn path for you. It makes complete sense. The little girl who you used to be doesn’t realize that things are different now. This is what is meant by things being unconscious versus conscious. This discomfort you are feeling is wanting you to find a new adult solution. Can you see that this DOESN”T have to be the same for you?

You can speak up and I imagine the adult you wants to speak up. This is a partnership with your Beloved, right?! Speaking up may be a new, un-worn path for you and this situation is giving you the chance to find your voice. I bet you have a very wise, loving, thoughtful, unselfish, brave, articulate voice, yet there’s a belief within you that silences you. Can you feel that self-silencing urge? It was once helpful to feel you from angering, upsetting those you love but this is a NEW situation and you are an adult woman now. Can you give yourself a chance to create a new belief about speaking up? Are you willing to stand up for yourself like you couldn’t as a child? Can you feel the energy and emotions (sadness, hurt, fear, anger) about all those times you were silenced, disregarded, ignored? As you become more aware that you have choices NOW, you can use that energy to mobilize you, urge you, support you in making new choices, speaking up and creating a life where you DO have choices over what happens to you. (This is a very good thing!)

Can you imagine what you’d say to your Beloved if you knew that you were free and safe to say whatever you’re feeling AND that you will still be totally loved and honored? This is probably a new path...and a glorious path for both of you.

Can you imagine this scenario where you can be supportive AND share your feelings?
Can you visualize that your beloved can have his dreams AND you can have yours?
Can you find the courage and faith to express your feelings to him AND trust that together you can craft a new path for this newly emerging life together where BOTH of your feelings, needs and wishes are EQUALLY regarded by both of you?

As you feel certain this man is the one for you, can you believe that your well-being, feelings, needs, etc can be equally valued by both of you? I’m asking a similar question from a few different viewpoints in hopes that any resistance or conflicting beliefs will come forward.

Chauvinism, various cultures, some societies and religions teach that men and women do NOT have equal say in a relationship. If any of these influences is present in your lives, you will be faced with some choices. Choices that you can make conscious and then decide if you want to follow them...r not! WOW, imagine the idea of being able to create your own list of beliefs and your own personal relationship based on what’s best for each and both of you. This is the opportunity that you have here.

While much of how successful you will be is based on the reaction of your Beloved to your expressed feelings and needs, the first step is for you to get clear about what you want, what you need, what you feel you have a right to in your loving relationship and what beliefs you hold which are stopping you from getting what you now, as the adult lovely woman.

From what you have written, I’d say you are on the verge of creating a magnificent life or on the brink of falling into the old patterns of the past. Your awareness of your feelings is a great indicator of your ability to become conscious of whatever has been buried. The more conscious we are, the more powerful we feel in our lives and the more freedom and choices we get to make.

Great work writing out what’s happening.
This feels like much more than a stepmothering issue, it is about the kind of life and relationship you want to create as an adult.
I’m glad you found us. I believe you have the ability to heal from your past and make a new present and future for yourself.

The more important question is this...Do you believe you have a right to have a voice about your feelings, to heal from your past and to share this dream with a man who will understand and fight for your happiness as much as you want to help him with his?

I’m going to be hoping that the answer is “Yes” and I wish you all the joys that come with self-revelation and ever-going consciousness.

May you find your strong true voice and use it, trusting that creating a life that’s joyful for you is also going to be joyful for your Beloved.

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